Thanks everyone. My reasons for doing this are me wanting to tone. I talked to my parents about going and my dad got mad. He said I can't afford to lose anymore weight. I kind of got mad at him as he is always putting everyone down for weight. I know I can't drop in weight but he freaked on me when all of the memories I have as a child was name calling when I was not even fat. He did this to my sister as well. They are both struggling with an ED as well.

I did not say much to him about it after. I had just mentioned that I was joining this club. He asked if I was trying to lose more weight and I said I wanted to tone more than anything. It went down hill from there.

Oh well, I am going. I do know that this is a form of an eating disorder. I do have fears of going to far. I want to do this for many reasons but in the back of my mind I know I have the potiental of getting out of hand. But one step at a time.

I feel so depressed right now, maybe this will help. Not sure. I have an appointment on Thursday with my t. I will see what he has to say.

Justy