Hi- I do get that. I get the stiff, frozen one too but only when triggered. The other... it’s like I’m doing something and things stop. I stop. I stare at the wall. Nothing moves, I’m in whatever position I was in, and I think ‘hmmm. I stopped. I wonder if I should move. I wonder if I can move. What was I doing? Do I know or even care? I could just stay like this...’. But the thoughts are slow, like time stopped. I still have a vague idea of what is going on, but I may or may not get back on track. It feels mentally painful to push through it when I must be somewhere.
I explained this to my psych nurse and she listed mild catatonia as a new dx for me. Said I’m already on the meds that help it (Valium)... or that med could also be causing it (like my dr thinks). She told me to track it. I might as well be tracking Pluto... something I can’t see.