Yes as much as I hate the slow progress I'm making I want it done now I understand that it took 20 years to get there and I lived with it for decades so I either have to choose to live a miserable life the rest of my life or do something now to fix it it's not going to happen overnight but eventually I will get there. I always think of it this way as well I can spend a few years doing EMDR working with the trauma specialist and getting over it or I can spend a lifetime either miserable or lifetime in therapy which I don't want either of those. My goal is to get better not to stay the same.