Just read my risk assessment/summary and it says I used to offer oral sex to men to secure their time and do handyman jobs. Yes I did in the past when completely intoxicated by alcohol. But these days I don't get drunk for about the last 5 months and I haven't been offering oral sex to men for some time maybe 4 years or more. Can't help but feel ashamed of myself. Wondering what my care coordinator OT thinks of me now.... well I can only attribute it to being sexually abused by my dad in childhood and sexually harassed by him....because why else would I do that??? I'm feeling like a crap piece because maybe I used to abuse myself offering oral sex to men when drunk. What's your perspective of things? Please advise. Thanks I've been diagnosed with BPD