Thanks everyone. Yes, I am safe. Too tired to care about any bad thoughts enough to act. All I want to do is sleep and at least sleep is safe.

I didn't call my therapist because I slept too late, right through my alarms. No point in calling now as there is no chance of an appointment in the shortened time he works this week. I'll go back Monday and hopefully will feel less exhausted by then and so driving won't feel so hard and potentially unsafe. I did email my pdoc and haven't heard back yet. I don't know what she can do so I'll wait a while before I try again (and sometimes it takes a few days anyway).

Tonight I have to scoop the kitty litter. Tomorrow maybe I'll make it to Walmart which I've been putting off for weeks. I am not desperate for anything from there yet but I know I need to get out of the house and not sleep so much.