Hi Ototot,

I'm sorry that your dad sexually abused and harassed you during childhood. You bear no responsibility for your dad's behavior.

I do think there's an association between your offering of oral sex to men while intoxicated and the sexual abuse you suffered from your father.

You've experienced trauma, and you did not ask for it, or bring it upon yourself, so there's nothing to be ashamed of.

Your care coordinator will not think less of you when you tell him/her about your past sexual behavior. Just the opposite.

I applaud your courage. It will take time and therapy, but I know that you will heal the wounds. And you'll fell so much better. And you deserve to feel better.