I am so sorry that you are hurting this bad, I wish I could gently wrap my arms around you and whisper in your ear that eveything is going to be ok, just get throught this immediate crisis , PM if you want , meet in chat anything, reach out to me or any of your other friends here on PC or in real life. I know you can feel better than you do right now, just have the tinest bit of hope and tomorrow with be a little better than today.

your friend
Linda