I was involved in my local alma mater chapter. I met and made friends with a few ladies. We would go to sport events and fundraisers together. Well I became symptomatic and then diagnosed. I told them and little by little they dropped off. I have since relocated and do not hear from them all together. I made a friend in college. She was the first person I met with bipolar disorder. We were very close. She did not believe in meds and would pick up and leave town. I would not hear from her for months at a time. I would call, text and inbox her on FB....no response. I finally caught up with her last year. I inboxed her on FB again and she replied. She had moved again and had been going through a hard time. I did not want to smoother her so I started contacting her every four or five months. I’ve tried to contact her twice in six months. I texted her on her birthday no reply. I just don’t think I can keep trying. I met another lady at MI group back in 2012. She was a good friend to me. After I relocated we would still stay in contact. I called her three months ago and it was someone else’s number now. I have no clue how to reach her now. I tried FB but she’s not on there. I really miss her. At this point I really don’t want any friends.