Hi Everyone,
After tomorrow I hope to be able to write a line to each of you.Tomorrow I go back to the new pdoc. Can you believe it's been a month? He's going to have to tweak the meds, but I expected that. I find myself a bit shy because I laid bare my soul to him last month in order to get the help I so desperately need. Now, he knows many of my most frightening, and thus, embarrassing secrets...
His supervisor sat in on the session and I got absolutely no feedback from her until the very end. She looked at me with the most compassionate eyes I believe I have ever seen and told me they would help me with the flashbacks. I hadn't even mentioned them... I hope I never forget the compassion in her eyes. It was an almost mystical experience...
I'm still having problems getting out of the recliner. My legs and ankles are very swollen. Now, I've pulled a chest muscle or something and the pain is so sharp it takes my breath away sometimes when I move.
Miss Belle played a lot today although she tires easily. We play "fight" where she runs all around the apartment and then jumps on me and attacks me and then jumps down and runs all around again. She bats at me with her paws and it feels like cotton balls are hitting my hands. She pretends to bite me, but she really just growls and holds my finger in her mouth. She thinks she's being fierce though. Who am I to tell her she's wrong?
I love you all! 
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