Ok, so after being referred from my Dr, to a shrink, to a therapist, I'm really not sure what is supposed to happen now.

I start therapy in 2 days. I haven't been since I was about 14.. it's been a number of years. I'm afraid that I'm going to be bad at it.. I don't know where to begin. Do I have to start conversation? If so, I mean, I have had a pretty dramatic life right from the start. Do I start in the present? There are quite a lot of issues that I am dealing with at the moment, that tear me in every direction. Do I start with my mental diagnoses?

Will my therapist make this easier on me? I don't yet know what I'm trying to get out of this.. I mean, I have issues that need to be dealt with (passively suicidal, extremely poor self-image issues, turbulent relationships), and mental disorders (borderline, major despressive, anxiety)..

But this whole thing scares me. What if she isn't used to someone like me? What is she going to ask me?

This is so new I don't even know what to expect.