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Originally Posted by Amyjay
I get "blanked" a lot. There are so many things that I can't think about.. if I try I get blanked. If I try to think about things that are "not permitted" they just get taken right out of my head. It is usually stuff about abuse or me trying to figure out puzzles of self parts, I guess my system deems it unknowable for now. it is a safety thing for me.
I haven't done EMDR but my therapist is trained in it and we may do it at some point but I am not stable enough yet.
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It really helped me with another issue that I was working through.
We were doing the same thing with this memory and it was different when the shut down happened.
Truthfully, I felt like I had done something wrong but I don't believe that.
I believe also that it was a protective part stepping in.
I'm so headstrong in wanting to sort things out and get peace, I seem to push myself into a bad place.
It's hard to hold yourself back when you want to feel whole and in one piece.
Don't know if that makes sense or not.
Thank you!