So...my therapist thinks it would be best I got an emotional support animal.
I want a cat (a kitten), because I had one before but she got out and I never found her. Though, I feel if I get one I am gonna replace her, but that's not true, but it's just the fact of, I still dream about her--a lot. Dreams she comes back, she hates me, she loves me, its been over two years and I still have those dreams. So, what I feel is she will hate me if I finally get another cat.
The other issue is the people I live with some are okay with it, but others are telling me to wait and just not really for the idea and I dunno--like I feel it's something I really need and trying to get attached to the other animals in the house that aren't mine is just making me more upset because they are not always going to be there, I NEED something for myself--but I am so easily just conformed to people due to trauma that its hard for me to just assert myself and I don't want to cause problems for people and I dunno...I just am not well and I feel a kitty would help.