Yea, I was wake. I was supposed to be watching tv with my wife. I kinda mentally floated off and was thinking about doing it and had a specific way. I'm more afraid of a hospital than death so I want to avoid it. When I have had this in the past and mentioned it, I quickly try and change the focus of the conversation. All purely on a fear of a hospital. It happens enough now that I think I should really talk to her about this. Then again, I don't want to go away.