Thank you. Thing is, I know what I want. I've spent a lot of time alone in my life thinking about just that. I've had a lot of relationships, but a lot of alone time too. But I DO try to make a square peg fit in a round hole, when it comes down to it. I try to force it to work because other things DO work.... I will definitely learn from this vast mistake. Never again will I allow myself to get so fooled by someone.