I spilled everything. Feelings.
I have no idea how she managed to hold the conversation for so long.
We only know for 1.5 weeks so it was weird for her to know I have feelings for her. But ironically, she supports me through my tough times for 2 hours, and she's like an antidote. She'd tell the conversation doesn't go anywhere and wondered if we should end it, or point out we have to go to sleep. She just kept staying regardless.
I know what she means to me but I don't know what I mean to her.
I asked her if she has such long conversations in general and she said yes. I asked about any men and she said she talks such long conversation with one guy she knows of.
And we know each other for a week and a half and she is willing to have a talk of 2 hours.
In the mid of the conversation she said she's already going out with someone. It was that moment that broke me and I hardly had anything to say. I even told her I'm not sure we can be friends. She said "eventually you'll have to do what is right for you". While empathetic and kind, it also says she doesn't care about me and that I don't have any value to her.

I thought my feelings would also mean feelings from the other person, and not just something personal.

I never learn. I am never willing to accept how things truly are. I treasure my feelings yet I don't know hers, apparently. Makes me feel more useless.
I am so obsessed I am thinking she may like me after all that spill-outs.

She said it's weird and unusual that I have such feelings for her after just a week and a half of knowing each other. I feel much more valueless when hearing that.

Well guys, I think my time is running out. I am officially worthless.
I'm still wondering the paradox though - she was still willing to talk to me for 2 ****ing hours. And we "only know each other for 1.5 weeks".

I am really devastated about how I ruined our new relationship that way. She is more distant with me now, and that distancing is so gentle yet I can feel it.

Guys what will I do?
I feel so sorry for burdening her with my feelings, and so sorry for having ruined our relationship like a selfish idiot
I just thought I'd go with my feelings because they felt special and very important at that moment, probably because of the tough time I'm going through, but regardless were felt strongly.