I understand, and... unfortunately it will hurt and you'll have a yearning for what once was, for a bit. Keep in mind though what you long for is not a relationship with him again but those good things that you got out of it at one point. That, can happen again but you would want it without the abuse, condescension and domination.

"Men are not nice" you sound like me when I speak of women in the relationships I've had. I've only experienced he bad. But I also have learned that this is solely based on what I've experienced and women as a group are not bad... there are just many of them that are