i'm not sure how to put into words my bpd traits. they were much much worse when i was younger. i've read in a few places that the symptoms tend to settle down as we get older. the attention seeking behaviours have gone way down but the desire to be noticed and paid attention to feels like it's just laying there dormant and was replaced by a long wave of depression...most likely because i turned 40 and don't have the youth and better looks that i did when i was younger.

i've done all those things you mentioned to an extreme. cheating was a big one just to get more "love". one didn't feel like enough but i didn't want to lose them...just feed my desire to feel loved.

it always ended badly. no one put up with it for too long or i moved on to my next one and "jumped ship" before they could leave me.

ohhhhhhh the horrors of loving with this!!!!!