I apologise if you read my reply as "harsh" as it sincerely wasn't meant that way. I don't consider that either of your posts 'derailed' the thread, I was just trying to explain what I was referring to...which really just perpetuates the problem...

The problem is that I'm not being understood for some reason. Now, before anyone interprets that as blaming anyone here, that's not my intention either. It is just a fact. It baffles me because I feel like the words that I use reflect my meaning as well as words actually can, given their subjectivity, BUT, since this happens with everyone I talk to about these sorts of things, either on- or offline, (though not generic everyday small talk-type things for some reason), logically I can't lay the problem at anyone else's feet. I'm the common link in all of my interactions.

People have told me this before, but I feel like I am making sense; explaining myself well, so I never believed them. But it must be true somehow. And so, since I can't seem to fathom a way to explain myself any better for others to actually be able to understand, I've decided to stop trying. So I will be asking for this thread to be closed so I don't keep generating further misunderstandings. As I said before, I should really never have posted it in the first place. But, again, that's not anything any of you have done 'wrong' or something, it's just me. I just can't figure out how to get my point across properly, and so I am just going to stop now because it's futile.

Thank you everyone for trying your best to make sense of my nonsense

*Willow*