Yeah, for now I would take the haldol. Maybe later you can find a med that doesn't blunt your emotions so much. I know how hard that is to deal with. Although I was never a writer, I used to read like 4-5 books at a time. Since I've been on meds I've only read like 9. That's in 6 yrs. But I can still cry and I'm not mixed like I was all the time before meds.

It's hard, I know.