I have been following your posts since I saw a heartbreaking thread this morning. Please, if you need someone to talk honestly and openly, don't hesitate to message. I feel your frustration, but you should not invest that amount of confidence in other people. That thread - that I believe got deleted, did that have to do with this?
You are out of your mind to consider yourself worthless just because you got rejected by a girl. You are stronger and smarter than that, dude.
Be well. Let's talk more. Talking heals.