Months ago, nearly a year now, my therapist and I had a disagreement. We had different goals going into the session and both were frustrated and things were said that I did not like much. Since then we've worked it out and I don't think of it unless I'm cycling and then I can't stop thinking about it. And I don't want to talk to him about it because it really was over and it only comes up as paranoia and negative thoughts about myself.

Tonight I'm also obsessing about a job I had in 2009. I had a very hard time there because my assistants did not care to follow what I told them to do. And my mind is wrapped around specific times this happened and all the times I should I have quit on the spot (I was very, very close to quitting when I was fired) because I was not treated with respect and because I was legally responsible for my assistants' poor ethics.

And there are others. My brain just isn't willing to stop beating me up and these things are in the past. They have no bearing on life now and I'm only thinking about it because I'm depressed.

That doesn't make it hurt less.