Argo... I'm very sorry for your experience and I hope you find and technique that will help you heal. You deserve it. I've been there and I get it. I hope you don't feel like I was judging you. I can only speak from my experience. I have probably done at least 12-15 sessions on the one trauma experience I'm currently working on. I have wanted to give up many times and I continue to have flashbacks about it but I have noticed in the past month that my SUDS score has gone from a 9-10 down to a consistent 6. Seeing this improvement is giving me hope that eventually I will get there.

As I stated earlier everyone's level of difficulty with EMDR is based on their personal background and we all have to make our own decisions as to when to call it quits. I go back and forth with that everyday. I guess I've just reached the point where I'd rather push through and see what's on the other side than to continue to live as I am now. I want to see this one trauma memory through to the end. I want to experience success in my healing for just one small thing. At that point I will decide if I want to continue to tackle the memories of childhood.

One thing I have definitely learned through EMDR is that every situation that impacts your emotional well-being as an adult in some way links back to something from childhood. I guess I could say that's my one current EMDR success story. I have had many aha moments during EMDR where I realize how my response to a negative experience I had that day at work for instance directly relates back to something that happened to me as a child. So I finally get the picture. If I can eliminate those negative trauma experiences from childhood I can also eliminate how I respond to different life experiences now in present day. That seems to give me more motivation to continue on.