I have so many of my own things to figure out and I can't seem to figure them out. I feel like there is this fog all around and I just can't seem to get rid of it. Then to add to my problems my mom and stepdad are talking about divorce. Part of me wishes they would just make up their mind and do it. Its like a roller coaster with them. My mom is so afraid of being single that she'd rather be in a loveless marriage than be single. And if they do get a divorce I'll be stuck taking care of my mom and thats kind of the reason I wish they'd stay together. I know that is terrible but I don't want to take care of her. Yes, she is my mom and she has done alot for me but at the same time she has treated me like crap too and I don't want to be stuck taking care of her. But yet I don't want her to be unhappy either. I feel torn between her and me. When her and my dad divorced I was 15 and I remember I never left her side. I felt it was my job to take care of her. Yes, she never asked me to but I did it. I didn't go hang out with friends, go to the movies, or anything like that because I didn't want to leave her. Like I said she never asked me to do it but I did it and at the same time she never declined it. And as bad as this sounds I kind of resent her for it. I feel I missed out on alot of things that other teens were doing. I know this may not make sense but I feel kind of bad. I just don't want to take care of her like I did before.