If you really, really desire to get help, then do it..
You're in control of your life, if your friends reaction is so trivial then maybe they're really not your friends, friends shouldn't bail on you when you need them most.

But having vivid thoughts of ending your life, I too have been there. And I got help and when all was said and done I honestly felt that there are people there who have it way worse than me.
And asking myself "wtf are you complaining about, you should count your blessings"...
Getting help can either be a wake-up call, reality check, call it what you will. But you have to be willing to get/take the help you so desperately desire..