Never done this before and can’t believe I’m resorting to the internet for this. My girlfriend of just one year ( I know I’m dramatic) we lived together she was my best friend literally everything to me. It all started about four days ago.. She was going to work for her uncle and put wristbands on people. She started drinking with a old friend who they just became friends again. That friend made fun of her all over social media made all her friends not like her. I’m one to forgive super easily, so when they started talking again I was fine with it. She told me she was coming home that night and then said she was going to that girls house and her phone was going to die. She ended up not coming home till 4 am she went out to the bar and lied to me. She came home at four am and said she was drunk and wanted to go to bed. I was like no you can’t just do that and expect nothing to be said. She starts shoving me I start shoving her. And she goes to shove me again and I kicked her in the thigh. Stupidest mistake of my life... she then is crying and I take her phone and I start to go through it and I find nothing and I’m being a jerk because my feelings are hurt. I had her phone behind my back and just said I wasn’t giving it back to her she keeps trying to get it and I just keep turning my back. She hits me in the face. And I just look at her. I’m just in shock. The next day I forgive her and I thought everything was fine I go to work and get no response all day. Get home she’s gone and my stuff is all packed. So this is Sunday..... Monday I go to work and everything and she says she wants all my stuff out. She texts me
Then Tuesday I went to bdubs with my friends and his sister and she texts me asking me if I’m with a girl I said yes, but it’s Ryan’s sister she’s like omg you’re pry trying to get with her. I was like dude I’d never do that one we just broke up and two that’s his sister. She then started to say how she needed new sheets and a new bed and all this stuff because she was so depressed. Go back a little bit Monday a friend told me to confront the situation and tell her how I feel and I did and she said it’s just not healthy anymore and that she doesn’t want anyone else and she still loves me. I lost it I can’t breathe I’m 19 years old played 3 sports in high school and I went in the bathroom cried and had a panic attack and couldn’t breathe. So after that I talked to some family and friends rent was due and she said she needed the money. This was during the day before we went to bdubs she told me if I didn’t give her 100 dollars the key to the place she was going to the cops. So then that night she was texting me talking about how upset she was and I was like when I get home can we talk. And she was like no it’ll just make things harder. And I was like okay and went to bed the next day I went to go pick up some more stuff from our place and she was at breakfast with a friend I asked to talk again she said the same thing. She let me shower there and I took out the air conditioners for her. She was texting me asking if I turned the internet off and all that. I didn’t respond and then she was like hello??? A couple times. I told her I did. She was like how can you be mad at me for ending this it wasn’t good for either of us. I waited for a text last night saying she was upset etc and she never did I drove to work this morning and I drive past our house and she wasn’t there. She is my best friend and yes we have had our problems every relationship does but I truly believe we’re met for each other. This isn’t my first real relationship I have dated a few people before this and of course when we split it sucked. I moved back home from college for this girl and agreed to get our own place and start our lives together. I feel like we may get back together and I know it sounds like a bad relationship but all the good things I can’t fit onto here. I just don’t get how she’s ready to give up so easy it was out of nowhere. Do you guys think she’ll come back? Should I keep ignoring her when she does? I had a pretty rough childhood and I’m not good st dealing with this I love really really hard. With that it makes my lows very low and my highs very high but I’m to the point where if I don’t have her I feel like it will never get better.... Idk why I even typed all this out but yeah. My friends don’t really get how upset I am I can’t eat or sleep I wake up in the middle of the night every single night. I’m lost and the thoughts I’ve been having I’ve never had before...