Tragically, not everyone - especially employers, sometimes - can understand how autism affects people or what it actually is. You're not incapable, you are clearly a smart, articulate, mindful deep thinker. I'm sorry about all the difficulties associated with work If only people were more understanding and patient.

I'm not really sure what to suggest except find an employer who understands your triggers/sensory/difficulties etc. That way, maybe they can patiently assist you in ''improving''? Also, consider a therapist who can help you reduce these traits that might have an impact on your work - maybe that could help?

Best wishes