I have no idea what group to post this to. But I need advice. Was I raped? When I was about 15 or 16, I snuck out to meet this guy. We both knew we were meeting up to have sex. But after a little bit of kissing, I stopped and said "I don't think we should have sex" and he repeated what I said, back to me. Then laughed and kept going. But I didnt get up and walk away or anything, which is what makes me think I consented. I wasn't under the influence in any way. But in the end, we did have sex and I felt AWFUL about it. And hadn't talked to him again, until a few months ago. When I see him, I don't even think about that night. I try and block it out. Everyone tells me "you never stop loving your first". But I never started loving him. I'm just confused. I don't think I consented. But at the same time, I also didn't do anything to try and get away from the situation. Which makes me think that I did consent.

Any advice is appreciated. Thank you.