I think you just need to forgive yourself, because it sounds like you are judging yourself for it, and move on. Acknowledge that it's something you used to do, but you don't anymore, you have higher standards now, and want to have healthy relationships, and just recognize that it happened and it's done.

Part of forgetting it and moving on is accepting it.

I'm quite a bit older than you, but when Twitter first came out, I was one of the first to join. I used to meet up with men and have one night stands. I see now how foolish and dangerous that was, but I don't regret it. That's part of what I was going through and needed at that time. I accept that I'm different now and what happened in the past does not define me today. It does not make me dirty.

I'm also an exhibitionist and have had sex in public places a lot. I still do. I know some people would call that slutty or whatever, but I have only ever done it with a committed partner and it's exciting for us. I don't care what other people think about it.

It's only your opinion of yourself that matters.

Seesaw