On days I know are going to be hard the night before I sometime take an extra 5 milligram of zyprexa. Like last night when I thought I'd be alone for a couple of hours today. I don't have a lot of extra but I didn't want be worried while they were gone so I took my old 15 mg instead of my 10 mg. My pdoc gave me ambien for when I'm not sleeping well but I'm super scared to take it. I don't want to go back up to 15 mg but they help my thoughts stay sane when I'm unsure I can challenge my thoughts. I don't see pdoc for another 2.5 months. I don't want to tell him either. I can't do it often I just do it when the other option is the hospital or I'm worried a situation will leave me scared and unable to rein myself in. Honestly I think I'll abuse the ambien if I try it.