Hi, welcome "bak" sigh. Seems a few of us are really having a go of it lately... maybe the full moons?

It's really difficult for me to think right now because of my own depression.

I understand not wanting to do the phone call bit, I'm the same way.

Do you have a local hospital where you can go by and pick up the list of their providers that they refer psych patients to? Do you not have an MD who will refer you? Maybe even have someone in the MD's office or the ER even, do the calling FOR you? Social workers at hospitals do that...part of their job.

If you can ask your spouse, maybe not make a huge deal of it, just ask him to find or look up or call for the healthcare provider list for you?

Sigh. Hope this helps somehow.