Hey Chase, things definitely seem to be a little mixed up right now. I was in an emotionally abusive relationship where my partner tried to suffocate my life. The last time I saw her she was angry at me and mentioned, "I want to hit you right now." She wound up in treatment the next day. Granted, she was not in full control of her emotions, but it still was not good. That threat lingers with me to this day. Though she never hit me or got physical with me, those words remained with me.

I think it is best to slow down and re-asses. She was intoxicated and took her anger out on you. It seems like it triggered you as well. Christina is right about physical harm; it changes everything. I think fluffy may also be right about spending time apart, maybe going to therapy, maybe talking at a distance and processing those crazy events.

The main thing is to slow down and clear your head. Do things you like, speak to trusted individuals, go see a therapist, talk on these boards. Find outlets to help yourself.