((((Sweet Sunshine))). I am sorry that you are struggling this much.. Maybe you can have a consult with your therapist, and talk to them about seeing you more often if you are working through the abuse, in therapy at this time. It takes a lot of support to move through things from the past, such as what you are going through, and you can possibly and hopefully get more appointments with your therapist if you tell your therapist that you are struggling this severely at this time. Take care (((SWEET))). PM anytime Soidhonia