Thanks for all you guys have said. I am staying at a friend's house for a bit as it is better for me to do some physical labor outside in his yard and not be near even a mildly toxic person. She's not that bad. Just stunted and weirdly middle-class narrowminded. And yeah actually the fact that my housemate is my ex does add a bit of complication just because honestly I need to catch her up on what the hell has been going on with me because she is fine with it, it's just better that we check in from time to time. I wouldn't need to be quite so candid with someone I hadn't been in an intimate relationship with at one point.

I've been tracking my moods closely for a while and I am assembling charts and graphs. They're good for the shrinks and also her, we're both engineer types. lol

Anyway, mood better here. It's not great being on a couch and the house is super cold and dark but whatever. I knew to bring at least one therapy lamp and extra layers!