So for the past month I've pretty much given up. I didn't pick up my meds until 2 weeks after I was supposed to (having run out of my spare reserves). Mostly been sleeping. A lot. The clozapine knocks you the hell out, but even beyond that, after waking up, I eat, go back to bed, get up and check computer things, go back to bed... Nothing holds my interests. I just want to sleep through it all. Not in a dramatic suicidal kind of way... just.. until something interesting happens.

The whole world is at my fingertips. Work is hard because it gets segmented between naps. I have plenty of recreational outlets available. After 10 minutes I just start getting supremely bored. When I am doing something, it is usually multitasking, like watching a show and working and posting and chatting. I am considering asking to go back on Adderall. Need to focus.

As of Saturday, my calendar is blissfully empty. It would be a nice point to go into hibernation. Come with me, spirit bear.