It has been a while sence i have been here. I have been hiding in a game...which is so much like rl its unbeleavable. I have been so confused with who i am and everything.I went to play the game to have fun. Well instead i made a lot of friends...i have broken a lot of guys hearts and i feel horrable. I understand its just a game to most that are reading this. But you can't say it unless you know what im talking about. Its not your typlical game at all. Everything there is just like irl...even real people. I became really close with one guy threw my game. He wanted a real relationship with me...which i can't offer right now. He was one of the greatest men i have talked to...i even talked to him in voice a lot. Like i said we was close. But then all hell broke loose and everything ended. I couldn't love him...tho i felt it. But i felt so confused i didn't realize that i did until it was to late. Most people in the game are looking for love..some find it. People like us who have been hurt. I feel guilty for not knowing what love really is and how it feels or if its real at all. I have learned from the game that no matter how hard i try and nice i am and they are..im still not completely happy. I am addicted to this game because of all the friends i have made and i wish to never lose that. But everytime i turn around i end up hurting someone some how. Some wanna meet me irl too...but i fear of hurting them later. And i don't trust myself irl either. I just become so lost and confused on whats right from wrong and how i should act from how i don't and all. I think i fear love and happiness somtimes. idk why...i guess because i never had it or somthing idk. This game was only to be fun...and now its just like rl in most ways. Idk whats wrong with me anymore. I tried so hard to seperate rl and the game...but when you talk to real people everyday and they become your close friend its hard. I hope someone can help me figure this all out..because i sures in heck can't.Thanks.