Hi icreateidestroy,

I don't know if you still program computers, but if you do it is a job that takes much of your energy. First depressions "steal" from your energy and adding to that comes your job.

I don't know what advice to give because if you take a new education, you need a lot of energy to do that. If I were you I would have used some time to find out more about what is really you problems (to write it down may be helpful).

You refer to your student days in this way: "I was more out-going, made more friends, was partying and having fun."

Do you think the same will happen now (you are 14 years older)?
Do you have any ideas about how to find more friends in your life now?
What can you do to be more outgoing now?

Since you have no ideas about what an other job would be, I would have written down your interest, if I were you.

Do you like the outdoor? (Is work outside something that will not be too draining for your brain)?
Would it be OK for you to have a less paid job, like a truck driver, a waiter and so on?

Is there something else you miss in your life? If so, what must you do to reach it?

Hope reflecting around these questions and others may help you to find out how to live as best you can with your depression.

It often is so that when we have had depression (may be on and off) for some years, it has become chronic in nature. Then the question is not how to get rid of it, but how to live best with it.