Sky,

Yeah, I have done the "geographical solution" many times. This is my latest one, a move I made almost 5 years ago. This time something good came of it--T. This is "the one". lol I feel that even though I've only been with her for 10 months and have only very recently opened up and followed my own often-given advice of "letting it happen, just go and talk about anything and everything". I just made that shift since the holiday break. It was over the holidays that I decided I trust her enough to do that and that I could risk saying more than I had been. I've been resisting and holding back, so it seems like it's just getting good.

I've felt a pull to return to where I came nearly since I got here. The truth is, even though I can say I want to go 'back', it doesn't exist because time changes things so my mental vision of 'back' is what was, not what is. It isn't there anymore.

I really don't like where I am. But I do love my T and I don't think I could leave her. I can't imagine ever leaving her. But I don't like where I am, so round and round I go.

I'm thinking of a minor move instead. Out of the disorganized place this city is and to a smaller town, which just happens to be nearer to T :-) who (I asked) has been at her current location for 12 years and in the general area even longer. I have no idea if it is still some kind of geographical solution going on or if a move to a more familiar feeling area would help me with missing where I came from.

Round and round. I'm getting dizzy!