I thought of going and just leaving but what id di don+t find the door it´s a ridiculous fear i know also what if someone sees me leaving also the friend i´m going with does not know people there either really but id be too scared to tell her i´m leaving so she´s be left alone and have to go home in the dark or something yes i give up nothing i do will ever be good because i keep failing and i wish all parties were banned forever....... . .