I was diagnosed with BPD just under a year ago. The past year has been very difficult and bewildering....for many reasons as I'm sure fellow BPD sufferers can understand. It is such a complex illness that I don't really want to say anything to confuse or interfere. But I will offer some friendly advice.......
please try really hard to trust your professional carers as they have an impartial view of your illness and only say and do things to make you feel better. And please don't do what I have done for the past twenty years - don't bottle things up!! Talk about it to people you can trust, like your professional carers, and remember that it is an illness that can improve with the correct therapy and support.
Finally conscentrate on plenty of self care whenever you can, just do whatever you can do that is positive to get yourself through each hour and make every day as happy and bearable as possible.
Take care