I guess I should clarify that i don't seek status in my community only that my reputation for the work I do remain strong, which I need it to do so for my livelihood.

I agree, I also have trust issues, which intensifies the paranoia. But I feel like I have been a terrible judge of coworkers and employers in the recent past as they turned out to be highly unethical people, so I don't know how to even decide if someone is trustworthy anymore.

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