Whatever. I´m not giving up, just taking a different route. Parties are trashy, and i want to appear like have class. Yes, my friends probably won´t be my friends anymore, but that´s okay. They´re all rather ugly, and i need to be surrounded with pretty friends anyways.
I´ll take a cozy bubble bath. I´ll have a nice dessert. I´ll be alone, because when you´re alone you´re strong. I´ll practice art instead of drinking cheap wine in some strangers house. I´ll become successful.
Taurus said he´d help me, too. With todays tasks. And when i feel sad later in the evening. Said he´d play with me and cuddle me. So i will be fine. Though i really am starting to, more and more, ponder upon ending my life so maybe my consciousness will take flight to the land of the green hills and i can spend an eternity there.