I don't like the term "man up" because it means "do what needs to be done" when the only one who knows what needs to be done is me, and what needs to be done is for me to feel better.
I never thought I'd say this but I love her. I don't know if it's the "I love you" kind of love, but there's really something about her that I love. It's her treasured empathy and emotional personality. She's cute, adorable, intuitive (as much as possible). But she's also been draining and we may have drained each other with our issues. Are two empaths like two black holes?
But she's really sweet regardless. I've been hurting so much about this I started developing stomach aches.
She's so sweet... I need help going through this.

Reviewing what I wrote makes me seem enchanted. I don't think it's good for me.
But, those feelings are still there, and I ponder if they mean something about us.