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it's up to me to make where I am now "work" the best for me.

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yep . And that's what I wonder about. if I'm resisting that, avoiding it, and looking outward when I should be looking inward. (I think the answer is "D: All of the above") :-)

I think it's a mighty defense. If I make it so that I like it 'here' or I like 'me' here, then I lose that defense.

I think I can move 'up the road' though I still dislike this region, and also work on the 'me' here at the same time; for me I think they are enmeshed, intertwined.

Thank you Sky!