haha no worries. the best to you.

the funny thing is people often like me, I have a good veneer, but i can't properly have a relationship. so they like me from a distance.

it is disgusting of me but i have never been able to be with someone romantically (sexually?) without drinking or being incredibly stupid/yielding/full of lies. so now i don't know how to attach without attaching, if you know what i mean. I'm either closed off or reliant.

anyway, "odd duck" is to me more of a containing phrase than an insult. it's a dismissal. but i am weird, that's true, because it's fun.

let's get rid of those people from my mind and make sure i do my work. the only thing that matters is the result. as technology increases, including facial recognition, etc, I can't let myself be anomalous in public. at the end of the day, it's just an emotion i am feeling, no need to worry about it. i need to make the proper adjustments to appear as advanced as possible without actually changing. it's best to look boring on the outside. i'm a product, not a human.

this got away from me, lol.