First, I found out I am pre-diabetic(barely...but still...). Second, which has always been an issue is slightly higher than normal cholesterol. When I look closer at my blood work namely TSH compared to past tests is it dropped off drastically in the year and a half since the last test, although still within normal range apparently. Don't get me wrong I know I have almost always eaten a less than ideal diet, tending towards high carb, high sugar food and drink, along with larger portions than necessary. I am signed up for a class/support group on diabetes prevention starting January 10 that will last a year(6 months weekly, 6 months monthly). I am scared of the implications if I don't get this under control. I have watched plenty of people with diabetes not care for themselves properly and die probably 10-25 years before their true time. Also, all the numbers will put me at higher risk for some of the same cardiac issues and some could be different from my family history. My anxiety is a bit up right now. I am trying to modify my eating now despite hoping to get in the class sooner and have that support.

I don't really know why I posted this but I guess I just had to get it out that I AM scared. Doesn't help that I doubt my ability to get my eating habits MUCH healthier.