Lyn, read your other post. how are you doing?
Yes, I got through. See t tonight, was glad that at the dr's today when she had to draw blood, she just took the offered arm i gave her - usually she wants to see both to choose her vein. The other one had marks i didn't want her to see. *whew* I didn't tell anyone about the last few... i doubt i will tell t tonight either. i don't see the point. for once it actually does look like a cat scratch so i am not hiding the visible one nearly as much.
Can i tell you a funny story?
Today, the gal drawing the blood was actually afraid of me! It was funny to me because i'm always the one terrified of THEM! All medical personnel, needles, the lot. I must give off some scary vibe because i never do anything, just sit there and cry and shake. So today she told my dr that i don't like her and wanted me to go somewhere else! Too funny. I am always polite, i always say thank you when she's done. I'm just completely a nervous wreck. well, i told them that the place wouldn't matter - needles are needles. Maybe i make the tech feel incompetent or something by being so scared? This is the first time she hasn't dragged another nurse in to "preoccupy" me, and also the first time i haven't cried. She really is a good tech, i just have lock jaw when it comes to telling her that. I didn't even feel it today - though it could be because i was already dissociated. At any rate, i thought it was funny - i scared the tech!

My t always used to tell me stories when i wanted to self harm. hoping this provides some distraction for you.
((((((((((((hugs)))))))))), kiya