(((((((cheekiebird))))))

I am so so sorry for what you have endured....your story is very similar to my own apart from it was my mothers lover who was a pdoc who abused me...my mother emotionally abused me and sexually a couple of times that I remember....my dad had nothing to do with it although my abuser tried t make me believe it was my dad because he was a hypnotist and messed with my mind from the age of 8-15.....

Just recently I askedmy so called mother for a break til I had been through therapy for a while....she respecedmy wishes...I said I'd be in touch in the new year and sort it all out...all 40 years of it....then my cousin dropped a bombshell....at a family Christmas party my mother said she could 'do without' all the hassle I'm putting HER through.....I have gone down hill since and all those raw feelings are coming back....she never believed me either.....I know your pain and I am holding you tight..... I crave the maternal love I never had and will never have.....

Please know you are not alone.....if ever you want to talk please pm me or I'll comeinto chat with you.....I'm from UK so there may be a time difference.....

I have 2 teens and I make sure they are protected and safe and loved...that at least is a positive out of something so bad....I have to think that way....

Keep safe....thinking of you

Jinnyann xxxxx remember you are not alone...