Same here. I'd wanted this state nursing-facility surveyor job for years, and I finally got it. But I soon realized I was in way over my head and ended up drowning in my own foolishness, which led to a mixed episode that cost me the job. It sucked, but I think it was for the best in the long run. It showed me that I was no longer fit for work, and I applied for disability and got it on the first try.

I miss being able to work and make enough money to live on. I manage my meager income very well, but there's a lot I want to do that I just can't on $1300 a month. However, I know I'm doing the right thing for my health by not pushing myself beyond my limits; since I've been on SSDI, I've lost 100 lbs, gotten rid of my diabetes, lowered my blood pressure by a bunch, and been mostly stable through it all. And I know if I tried to go back to work, the stress would put me right back on the road to hell.

I hope things will be better for the OP than they were for me.