alex, thanks for understanding how I can't bring up that topic with T for fear of hurt. I can see you really get it. I liked your comment about the balance between risk and self preservation.

ECHOES, T and I discussed his billing last time, and I don't feel a need to revisit it right now. He is a professional and needs to bill for his time. I do contract work sometimes, and it is respectful to oneself to bill for every minute. If you are continually doing "free" work, what does that say about how you value yourself? These are my thoughts, not my T's. He is struggling a bit now on how or whether to change his billing practices so as to better reflect the work he does outside of session for his clients. ECHOES, I do think you're right about the therapy fee being somewhat global. If I keep my emails infrequent and short, I think this is within what he can provide to me for free.

That said, I just emailed T a rather long email! This is a first for me, and I hope I don't get censured. At the end I did say this was something we could explore further at the next session, so I hope he understands I don't expect a time-consuming response from him. I included the information he had asked me about (related to an article we had discussed in session) and expounded on that at length, relating it to stuff in my own life. And I also told him how uncomfortable I was learning he had shared what I had told him with the other lawyer. I raised the therapist/coach dichotomy and let him know I missed the confidentiality we used to have. So, I put a lot of stuff out there. It was kind of scary (high risk, as alex wrote), but I think it will be a good starting point for next time. (Unless other issues have arisen!)