Okay.... you got our attention. What exactly is your point? What is the source of your hurt that you are venting about? I could read between the lines but I'd prefer a little more direction from you first love_hate_sad.

My heart goes out to your pain but I'm not sure what kind of support you are needing right now to direct my thoughts.

Hope you feel able to share. We are all at various stages of hope and recovery. We each journey towards living full and productive lives within our given and learned capacities. Some days we scale tall buildings, other days we stall and other days we fall behind. Coming to PC we are supported wherever we are at.